Monday, May 17, 2010

feel like crying,
feel like shouting.
feel like saying things out,
feel like scolding ppl,
feel like hitting ppl,
do not like to be alone,
do not like to be left out,
do not like to be quiet,
do not like to be hurt,
do not like to be ignore,
do not like to be hate,
do not like to be suffering.
But it is all happening,
what a good month or life i had,
why i am suffering?
why i am being left out?
why i am alone?
why i am hurt?
why i am being ignore?
why i am being hate?
why i cannot cry?
why i cannot shout?
why i cannot scold?
why i cannot say things out?
why i cannot hit?
why i cannot feel the love?
why i cannot feel the joy?
why i cannot feel the laughter?
why i cannot feel the concern?
why i cannot feel the trust?
why i cannot feel the care?
why must i being forced?
why must i accept the things that i do not want?
why must i be the one?
why must i do things that i do not want?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
Can anyone tell me why?
ignoring ppl is not a thing that i like,
showing ppl attitude is not the thing that i want,
giving ppl cold shoulders is not the thing that i love,
but why i am doing all these now?
why cant i just be the normal girl?
Why must i ended up so sad?
losing things one by one?
the guy that i truly love?
friends that i always hanging out with?
friends that i always talk to?
why must they force me to accept things that i do not really want to.
I am tired, really tired.
No matter how crazy i ACT,
No matter how cold i DID,
it not the one that i really want,
i just want things to be normal,
be back to the past.
why is it so hard?
I am tired le.

what we could have been, 10:10 PM.