Monday, May 17, 2010
feel like crying,
feel like shouting.
feel like saying things out,
feel like scolding ppl,
feel like hitting ppl,
do not like to be alone,
do not like to be left out,
do not like to be quiet,
do not like to be hurt,
do not like to be ignore,
do not like to be hate,
do not like to be suffering.
But it is all happening,
what a good month or life i had,
why i am suffering?
why i am being left out?
why i am alone?
why i am hurt?
why i am being ignore?
why i am being hate?
why i cannot cry?
why i cannot shout?
why i cannot scold?
why i cannot say things out?
why i cannot hit?
why i cannot feel the love?
why i cannot feel the joy?
why i cannot feel the laughter?
why i cannot feel the concern?
why i cannot feel the trust?
why i cannot feel the care?
why must i being forced?
why must i accept the things that i do not want?
why must i be the one?
why must i do things that i do not want?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
Can anyone tell me why?
ignoring ppl is not a thing that i like,
showing ppl attitude is not the thing that i want,
giving ppl cold shoulders is not the thing that i love,
but why i am doing all these now?
why cant i just be the normal girl?
Why must i ended up so sad?
losing things one by one?
the guy that i truly love?
friends that i always hanging out with?
friends that i always talk to?
why must they force me to accept things that i do not really want to.
I am tired, really tired.
No matter how crazy i ACT,
No matter how cold i DID,
it not the one that i really want,
i just want things to be normal,
be back to the past.
why is it so hard?
I am tired le.
feel like shouting.
feel like saying things out,
feel like scolding ppl,
feel like hitting ppl,
do not like to be alone,
do not like to be left out,
do not like to be quiet,
do not like to be hurt,
do not like to be ignore,
do not like to be hate,
do not like to be suffering.
But it is all happening,
what a good month or life i had,
why i am suffering?
why i am being left out?
why i am alone?
why i am hurt?
why i am being ignore?
why i am being hate?
why i cannot cry?
why i cannot shout?
why i cannot scold?
why i cannot say things out?
why i cannot hit?
why i cannot feel the love?
why i cannot feel the joy?
why i cannot feel the laughter?
why i cannot feel the concern?
why i cannot feel the trust?
why i cannot feel the care?
why must i being forced?
why must i accept the things that i do not want?
why must i be the one?
why must i do things that i do not want?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
Can anyone tell me why?
ignoring ppl is not a thing that i like,
showing ppl attitude is not the thing that i want,
giving ppl cold shoulders is not the thing that i love,
but why i am doing all these now?
why cant i just be the normal girl?
Why must i ended up so sad?
losing things one by one?
the guy that i truly love?
friends that i always hanging out with?
friends that i always talk to?
why must they force me to accept things that i do not really want to.
I am tired, really tired.
No matter how crazy i ACT,
No matter how cold i DID,
it not the one that i really want,
i just want things to be normal,
be back to the past.
why is it so hard?
I am tired le.
what we could have been, 10:10 PM.
Monday, May 10, 2010
am i paranoid?
I dunno.
these few days i really feel very hurt.
That one month thing is really a burden to me.
Half of the school year is going to an end.
Which mean i cannot see him after that le.
We maybe going to different class le.
I really dun wan.
I dunno.
these few days i really feel very hurt.
That one month thing is really a burden to me.
Half of the school year is going to an end.
Which mean i cannot see him after that le.
We maybe going to different class le.
I really dun wan.
what we could have been, 6:30 AM.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
yesterday de you and today de you are really very different.
I just want to talk to you.
Whatever i said to you, it seem that it all offend you.
Other than that, i really do not know why you are treating me like that.
I just want to let things go on smoothly.
Although i may be waiting for your return.
But if you do not believe, i also cannot do anything to actually let you ch ange the mindset.
You say before that i make you believe the word forever for relationship.
So can i actually make the same changes to at least let you not believe that.
I really do not know.
You suddenly treat me very good and suddenly cold, really let me feel very sad.
I just want to talk to you.
That all i want, showing you care and concern.
Can you dun treat me so cold?
I dunno whether is there feeling for me by you.
But i just hope that things can actually be better instead of now.
I really very happy that i actually accompany you thru the time where you are doing csad.
But hey, i really dun know what i done wrong today?
You suddenly treat me so cold, that make me really do not know what i had done wrong.
Hey, i really do not wish that things will come out so weird.
I am just like syabrina, but our situation is different bahs.
Is like we are not a couple and wad, but at least we are once a couple?
I really appreciate that you wun treat me so cold anymore.
That all i want for now?
I am not hoping too much from you but i just want concern from you.
Can you fulfill my wish?
let me be the one to change your thinking?
Please?
I just want to talk to you.
Whatever i said to you, it seem that it all offend you.
Other than that, i really do not know why you are treating me like that.
I just want to let things go on smoothly.
Although i may be waiting for your return.
But if you do not believe, i also cannot do anything to actually let you ch ange the mindset.
You say before that i make you believe the word forever for relationship.
So can i actually make the same changes to at least let you not believe that.
I really do not know.
You suddenly treat me very good and suddenly cold, really let me feel very sad.
I just want to talk to you.
That all i want, showing you care and concern.
Can you dun treat me so cold?
I dunno whether is there feeling for me by you.
But i just hope that things can actually be better instead of now.
I really very happy that i actually accompany you thru the time where you are doing csad.
But hey, i really dun know what i done wrong today?
You suddenly treat me so cold, that make me really do not know what i had done wrong.
Hey, i really do not wish that things will come out so weird.
I am just like syabrina, but our situation is different bahs.
Is like we are not a couple and wad, but at least we are once a couple?
I really appreciate that you wun treat me so cold anymore.
That all i want for now?
I am not hoping too much from you but i just want concern from you.
Can you fulfill my wish?
let me be the one to change your thinking?
Please?
what we could have been, 10:26 PM.
