Friday, June 27, 2008
nowadays thinking that my cough come back le.
it a torture.
it so unbearable.
i cannot stand it le.
i really very painful.
is like the whole body is very hot.
i dunno.
really very tired.
sorry plp around me.
i give u all attitude.
really sorry.
i now dunno wad happen to me.
becasue is like my heart will feel very pain.
than i dun think i cna be like last time so hyper le.
everytime try to talk now.
is like very hard.
will cough when i tried.
really cannot tahan.
it like REALLY VERY UNBEARABLE.
can any doctors juz tell me wad happen to me.
why will i become like tat.
at first thought is only a flu.
but why now suddenly become cough.
and is getting worse and worse.
i totally got no moods.
this june hoildays happen a lot of things.
and i dun wan to mention it le.
now than i understand wad is when there is a gain,there will be a loss.
maybe as wad sam say.
i gain other friends de concern.
but i loss de.
is the 5 friends that i think is close to me bahs.
To Raymond and Ryan:
although we are not really that close.
but is my pleasure to know you all.
and at least we have some fun during trg.
i will miss it de.
To Guang qing,
i think among u and the other 3 ah bengs.
i know you,
get close to you first.
and still remember u are the one who concern me at first.
i really appreciate it.
although we have a lot misunderstanding in between.
but is like.
whenever we see each other.
juz dunno why.
our arguments will juz stop there.
i think is good bahs.
now you got her le.
seeing you two hang out that time so happy.
i felt happy for you 2 too.
i know you know about me and her de matter.
i think you will start to hate me bahs.
but juz wanna tell you.
those memories you gave me.
whether is good or bad.
it will be kept in my mind.
i know you wanna me to tell you whenever i got troubles or wad.
but sorry.
i really dun know how to tell you.
because i think you will become a bread bahs.
Sorry about that.
To Ming sheng:
hey.
among the 4 ah bengs.
you are the one who really can understand me well bahs.
i know you always the most innocent 1 de.
but i dun wan you to be like a bread.
sorry.
maybe i never care about your feelings.
but really sorry.
i dunno how to settle my friendship with friends properly bahs.
really sorry.
i will do wad i promise.
you always try to make me happy.
but sorry.
i now dunno wad happy taste is like le bahs.
really sorry.
although i dunno.
but wad i know is.
i got once a friend like you.
is really my pleasure le.
really.
good luck in ur N level bahs.
i will keep on wishing you good luck bahs.
To Jasmine:
i dun think i got anything to put here le bahs.
since i wrote a letter to you le.
but hope that you know wad i mean.
SORRY.
To me.
i think sorry is no use.
but now i dunno wad i can say.
but only sorry bahs.
sory about that.
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
you all can hate me.
forget me as a friend.
forget all the memories we had.
but no matter wad.
i wanna tell you.
SORRY.
maybe we cannot be like the past so siao or so close.
but i juz wanna tell you that.
i will remember all the memories that you give me.
no matter it will hurts me or make me happy.
but is all you all give me de.
i never regret to know you as a friend.
i dunno whether you all will mahs.
but it will always kept in my heart and mind.
that you are the one that make me really happy before.
dun care whether it is the first time and also the last time.
but really thanks.
sorry.
will us be back like last time?
i dunno.
now i cannot really promise you anything.
nor keep my promise.
because i now totally cannot believe myself.
i totally lose my ability,
confidence.
and lastly my trust towards myself.
sorry.
good luck in everything bahs.
i will be at the another side of the world wishing you.
by the way.
thanks and sorry.
STELLA XD
Labels: all the way wishing you all good luck
what we could have been, 6:42 AM.
Monday, June 23, 2008
First day of school.
hahas.
actually nothing much lorhs.
i juz like the feeling of got school.
but now i only can study le.
hahas.
elisa jenson and me planning to finish all our homework on that day than go home.
and is for EVERYDAY until our o level.
hahas.
on wednesday we are going to step down le.
although i will miss the days with you all.
but hope that you wun forget about me bahs.
STELLA XD
hahas.
actually nothing much lorhs.
i juz like the feeling of got school.
but now i only can study le.
hahas.
elisa jenson and me planning to finish all our homework on that day than go home.
and is for EVERYDAY until our o level.
hahas.
on wednesday we are going to step down le.
although i will miss the days with you all.
but hope that you wun forget about me bahs.
STELLA XD
what we could have been, 6:11 AM.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
today after the sec 2 and 3 workshop.
i realise something.
VARIAN IS A STRONG GUY.
not that got a lot of muscles de strong.
but is mentally de strong.
no matter wad happen to him.
he still can overcome it.
i really very envy him.
but i juz cannot be like him.
that wad i can say.
although things happen to me but i dun show it on my face.
but i cannot hide it from my heart.
is like at home.
i will juz think of it.
and i will be sad or really emo.
dunno.
now i am reading a book title.
learn to give up.
i think i really wanna give up on some things le.
but it quite hard for me bahs.
i am those kind who cannot forget the past.
no matter is sad or happy memories.
but dun say about things that are really far back.
juz some recently things bahs.
i juz cannot forget larhs.
dunno why.
it like the scar is always in my heart.
is like will stay there forever larhs.
i am glad that varian found his real true friends.
have i find mine?
i dun think so.
maybe like wad i told niang is that.
maybe u think that u understand him or her well.
and think that you 2 are really best friends.
and he or she is your true friend le.
but sooner or later.
u realise that he or she is not.
but is juz a friend that think that you can entertain him or her.
when he or she is bored.
can lend her or him your listening ear when he or she is sad.
i think that 1 will really hurt u a lot alot.
maybe wad i think now is juz my way of thinking bahs.
after this.
i think things will change.
and wad i think sort of my close friends will als disappear bahs.
i dunno.
although i dun wish too.
but myabe this is juz fate bahs.
all i can do.
is to accept the fate.
and keep the good memories that we had before bahs.
i really wish to find those true friends as wad varian say bahs.
will be there whenever u need them.
will really come down if there is something urgent that you need them.
whether they are in the east or west.
but do i really can find?
i dun think so.
maybe bhas.
but it will be very late for me to realise it bahs.
i dunno lehs.
i wish that i could find it asap bahs.
hao le.
now gt tuition.
gtg le.
STELLA XD
i realise something.
VARIAN IS A STRONG GUY.
not that got a lot of muscles de strong.
but is mentally de strong.
no matter wad happen to him.
he still can overcome it.
i really very envy him.
but i juz cannot be like him.
that wad i can say.
although things happen to me but i dun show it on my face.
but i cannot hide it from my heart.
is like at home.
i will juz think of it.
and i will be sad or really emo.
dunno.
now i am reading a book title.
learn to give up.
i think i really wanna give up on some things le.
but it quite hard for me bahs.
i am those kind who cannot forget the past.
no matter is sad or happy memories.
but dun say about things that are really far back.
juz some recently things bahs.
i juz cannot forget larhs.
dunno why.
it like the scar is always in my heart.
is like will stay there forever larhs.
i am glad that varian found his real true friends.
have i find mine?
i dun think so.
maybe like wad i told niang is that.
maybe u think that u understand him or her well.
and think that you 2 are really best friends.
and he or she is your true friend le.
but sooner or later.
u realise that he or she is not.
but is juz a friend that think that you can entertain him or her.
when he or she is bored.
can lend her or him your listening ear when he or she is sad.
i think that 1 will really hurt u a lot alot.
maybe wad i think now is juz my way of thinking bahs.
after this.
i think things will change.
and wad i think sort of my close friends will als disappear bahs.
i dunno.
although i dun wish too.
but myabe this is juz fate bahs.
all i can do.
is to accept the fate.
and keep the good memories that we had before bahs.
i really wish to find those true friends as wad varian say bahs.
will be there whenever u need them.
will really come down if there is something urgent that you need them.
whether they are in the east or west.
but do i really can find?
i dun think so.
maybe bhas.
but it will be very late for me to realise it bahs.
i dunno lehs.
i wish that i could find it asap bahs.
hao le.
now gt tuition.
gtg le.
STELLA XD
what we could have been, 3:43 AM.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Firstly,
I APOLOGISED FOR THE HARSH WORDS FOR THE PREVIOUS POST??..
Hmm... I think I should apologise? I really not sure..
But I was really angry. That's why i did such an impulsive act..
At least, more concern was shown to Stella =)
I'm just a nobody. U guys are angry because u guys cared for her..
I posted because Stella asked me why i didn't..
Haha.. Another reason is because got the "feel" to?
Remedials and remedials the whole of this wks. Tiring eh? I am!
But quite an enjoyable one.
Many things happen this year and it's quite hard to accept the changes but..
LIFE STILL GOES ON!!
Ppl always say :"Cherish/Treasure what you have, before it's gone.."
But how many ppl get the TRUE meaning? Perhaps NOT to the majority..? me too.
I always take things for granted and when i lost it, i cried?..
One of my EX-friend had landed to such pathetic state too..
I dont know should i laugh at him or comfort him..
Such ending was all his DOINGS.
He lost all his friends and yet, he didn't try to change his attitude towards ppl.
What should i say? i cant help. Because I'm nothing better.. (Perhaps the least better than him xD)
HAA! What a joke?
Things just happened without warning.. How you expect ppl to accept it in a short time?
LAO TIAN ar, you must be joking with us right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
-elisa
I APOLOGISED FOR THE HARSH WORDS FOR THE PREVIOUS POST??..
Hmm... I think I should apologise? I really not sure..
But I was really angry. That's why i did such an impulsive act..
At least, more concern was shown to Stella =)
I'm just a nobody. U guys are angry because u guys cared for her..
I posted because Stella asked me why i didn't..
Haha.. Another reason is because got the "feel" to?
Remedials and remedials the whole of this wks. Tiring eh? I am!
But quite an enjoyable one.
Many things happen this year and it's quite hard to accept the changes but..
LIFE STILL GOES ON!!
Ppl always say :"Cherish/Treasure what you have, before it's gone.."
But how many ppl get the TRUE meaning? Perhaps NOT to the majority..? me too.
I always take things for granted and when i lost it, i cried?..
One of my EX-friend had landed to such pathetic state too..
I dont know should i laugh at him or comfort him..
Such ending was all his DOINGS.
He lost all his friends and yet, he didn't try to change his attitude towards ppl.
What should i say? i cant help. Because I'm nothing better.. (Perhaps the least better than him xD)
HAA! What a joke?
Things just happened without warning.. How you expect ppl to accept it in a short time?
LAO TIAN ar, you must be joking with us right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
-elisa
what we could have been, 6:11 AM.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Everything Changes!!
no matter when it changes and how long it has changes.
it all doesnt matter.
all it matter de.
is juz the consequences bahs.
after the changes,
we dunno whether we can be back to the past we.
or be even better.
or get worse.
we dunno.
no matter wad.
the conflict of us will still be there.
but it cannot be like the past le bahs.
juz like wad the song EVERYDAY from High School Musical 2 de lyrics wrote.
once in a lifetime,
means there no second chance.
so i believe that you and me.
should grab it while we can.
maybe you will say that chances is people give de.
but if i really give u a chance,
will you treasure the chance mahs?
if u wun,
so wad the point of keep on saying sorry,
hope that i can give u a chance to change.
but yet u dun treasure the chance.
to me,
is meaningless.
saying how many times sorry does it really solve the problem.
or saying sorry will really solve the problem.
if yes,
than i dun think there is a need to have polices.
sorry,
doesnt mean to say anybody.
but i just wanna ppl out there to know that.
if you really wan a person to forgive u.
please really say sorry with all ur heart and soul.
and prove it to him or her.
if not.
the sorry to her or him is totally meaningless.
you can say thousands or millions of times sorry to a person.
but if u dun change urself,
than wad the point of saying sorry.
you are saying for the sick of saying that all.
For me.
is very hard for me to get back how i treated u in the past.
that 1 i really muz say sorry.
i cannot forget about how u treated me in the past.
maybe as wad ppl say.
forgive and forget.
i can forgive u.
but i cannot easily forget.
you can say me is those kind of person who is very particular about things.
but really i am very sorry about it.
i am trying to make myself forget the past that u treated me.
but i just cannot bahs.
if u dun mind.
please give me some time.
i will try my very best to forget.
but if i cannot,
really very sorry.
all i can say is.
and if you think that i am selfish or too unreasonable.
all i can say is sorry.
because maybe wad i have been worry about or been thinking.
is just i think too much le.
i try to stay positive.
but maybe i just too weak bahs.
but i swear that ppl who knows me.
will see my cheerful side instead of my emo or sad side.
i just dun wan ppl to worry about me.
if ppl out there really worry about me.
i am glad that you worry about me.
because at least in your heart.
you really treated me as friend.
i am really very happy about it.
but i am sorry to tell you that i cannot say it out to you bahs.
because if i say it.
i will hurt the other person or cause u into trouble.
which i dun wan.
so really sorry about it.
and i also dun wan to put a burden on you too.
A MESSAGE TO ALL MY FRIENDS:
I am glad that i know you and have you as my friend.
i wun regret having you as a friend.
althought we have some conflict among us.
but the times that we had.
make me very happy.
really.
hope that we can be friends for life.
and sorry if i offend you.
A MESSAGE TO THOSE WHO IS CLOSER TO ME:
those happy moments that we had i really treasure.
and it keep on repeating in my mind.
i dun deny that everytime i think of it.
my smile will just appear on my face without fail.
i really will remember it for life.
as for the sad moments.
although it hurt me.
and is very hard for me to clear it in my mind.
but i will try to clear it for your sake.
and will let the happy moments cover all the sad moments.
i promise you that i will try find back my smile.
and forget the sad moments we had.
but it need two hands to clap.
if i really wan to forget and find.
i also need your support and time to let me change.
hope that we can be better next time.
but lastly.
A MESSAGE TO EVERYONE NO MATTER CLOSER FRIENDS OR FRIENDS!!!
always rememeber that no matter how tough it is or wad.
STELLA will always 24/7 be there for you.
you can just give me a call or sms me.
and i will return you asap.
i promise.
so if you need a listening ear.
you can always find me.
i will try to help you.
STELLA XD
no matter when it changes and how long it has changes.
it all doesnt matter.
all it matter de.
is juz the consequences bahs.
after the changes,
we dunno whether we can be back to the past we.
or be even better.
or get worse.
we dunno.
no matter wad.
the conflict of us will still be there.
but it cannot be like the past le bahs.
juz like wad the song EVERYDAY from High School Musical 2 de lyrics wrote.
once in a lifetime,
means there no second chance.
so i believe that you and me.
should grab it while we can.
maybe you will say that chances is people give de.
but if i really give u a chance,
will you treasure the chance mahs?
if u wun,
so wad the point of keep on saying sorry,
hope that i can give u a chance to change.
but yet u dun treasure the chance.
to me,
is meaningless.
saying how many times sorry does it really solve the problem.
or saying sorry will really solve the problem.
if yes,
than i dun think there is a need to have polices.
sorry,
doesnt mean to say anybody.
but i just wanna ppl out there to know that.
if you really wan a person to forgive u.
please really say sorry with all ur heart and soul.
and prove it to him or her.
if not.
the sorry to her or him is totally meaningless.
you can say thousands or millions of times sorry to a person.
but if u dun change urself,
than wad the point of saying sorry.
you are saying for the sick of saying that all.
For me.
is very hard for me to get back how i treated u in the past.
that 1 i really muz say sorry.
i cannot forget about how u treated me in the past.
maybe as wad ppl say.
forgive and forget.
i can forgive u.
but i cannot easily forget.
you can say me is those kind of person who is very particular about things.
but really i am very sorry about it.
i am trying to make myself forget the past that u treated me.
but i just cannot bahs.
if u dun mind.
please give me some time.
i will try my very best to forget.
but if i cannot,
really very sorry.
all i can say is.
and if you think that i am selfish or too unreasonable.
all i can say is sorry.
because maybe wad i have been worry about or been thinking.
is just i think too much le.
i try to stay positive.
but maybe i just too weak bahs.
but i swear that ppl who knows me.
will see my cheerful side instead of my emo or sad side.
i just dun wan ppl to worry about me.
if ppl out there really worry about me.
i am glad that you worry about me.
because at least in your heart.
you really treated me as friend.
i am really very happy about it.
but i am sorry to tell you that i cannot say it out to you bahs.
because if i say it.
i will hurt the other person or cause u into trouble.
which i dun wan.
so really sorry about it.
and i also dun wan to put a burden on you too.
A MESSAGE TO ALL MY FRIENDS:
I am glad that i know you and have you as my friend.
i wun regret having you as a friend.
althought we have some conflict among us.
but the times that we had.
make me very happy.
really.
hope that we can be friends for life.
and sorry if i offend you.
A MESSAGE TO THOSE WHO IS CLOSER TO ME:
those happy moments that we had i really treasure.
and it keep on repeating in my mind.
i dun deny that everytime i think of it.
my smile will just appear on my face without fail.
i really will remember it for life.
as for the sad moments.
although it hurt me.
and is very hard for me to clear it in my mind.
but i will try to clear it for your sake.
and will let the happy moments cover all the sad moments.
i promise you that i will try find back my smile.
and forget the sad moments we had.
but it need two hands to clap.
if i really wan to forget and find.
i also need your support and time to let me change.
hope that we can be better next time.
but lastly.
A MESSAGE TO EVERYONE NO MATTER CLOSER FRIENDS OR FRIENDS!!!
always rememeber that no matter how tough it is or wad.
STELLA will always 24/7 be there for you.
you can just give me a call or sms me.
and i will return you asap.
i promise.
so if you need a listening ear.
you can always find me.
i will try to help you.
STELLA XD
what we could have been, 5:07 AM.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
To those who read my blog before,
maybe when u all read that time,
u will feel very angry and very weird?
who the hell is elisa saying.
but ppl please.
dun do anything to make elisa.
maybe she is the only one in the world who really know me well bahs,
so please.
i dun wan get her into trouble.
wad she said,
is juz wad i am thinking.
i dun wan because of me to hurt anyone beside me.
please.
maybe i will lost u all as a friend.
but please dun let any person beside me angry.
maybe u will be curious why she will write this.
actually is i felt this way.
things changes here and there.
now it seem it will get worst and worst bahs.
i dun dare to face u all now.
knowing that u all very angry.
really sorry about that.
maybe u all will hate me as how u hate others.
but i juz wanna say.
wad elisa say is rite.
i founf my friends that really can make me find my smile.
that is you all.
and althought we cannot be friends anymore.
i will treasure and remember the happy memories we had.
sorry to make u angry.
really sorry.
STELLA XD
maybe when u all read that time,
u will feel very angry and very weird?
who the hell is elisa saying.
but ppl please.
dun do anything to make elisa.
maybe she is the only one in the world who really know me well bahs,
so please.
i dun wan get her into trouble.
wad she said,
is juz wad i am thinking.
i dun wan because of me to hurt anyone beside me.
please.
maybe i will lost u all as a friend.
but please dun let any person beside me angry.
maybe u will be curious why she will write this.
actually is i felt this way.
things changes here and there.
now it seem it will get worst and worst bahs.
i dun dare to face u all now.
knowing that u all very angry.
really sorry about that.
maybe u all will hate me as how u hate others.
but i juz wanna say.
wad elisa say is rite.
i founf my friends that really can make me find my smile.
that is you all.
and althought we cannot be friends anymore.
i will treasure and remember the happy memories we had.
sorry to make u angry.
really sorry.
STELLA XD
what we could have been, 8:05 AM.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Hello. Back again?.. haha..
hmm... just got a feeling to blog and here i am..
Everyone does make mistakes in life, who doesn't?. Blame no one for making mistakes but yourself.. Making mistakes is nothing but it matters if you're realise your mistakes or not and did u do anything to cover it? Or rather, SOLVE it!
No one is born to be perfect. But born to adapt and accept changes..
No one is born and able to predict what they will do but when things happened, changing it and make it better is what we can do..
-elisA
hmm... just got a feeling to blog and here i am..
Everyone does make mistakes in life, who doesn't?. Blame no one for making mistakes but yourself.. Making mistakes is nothing but it matters if you're realise your mistakes or not and did u do anything to cover it? Or rather, SOLVE it!
No one is born to be perfect. But born to adapt and accept changes..
No one is born and able to predict what they will do but when things happened, changing it and make it better is what we can do..
-elisA
what we could have been, 8:54 PM.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
i think i did a wrong choice in the beginning bahs.
but seeing them so happy.
i think to me is ok bahs.
although we argue because of comeone.
bt i think it wun affects bahs.
hope that u really have found ur happiness and can stay happy always.
we dun wan to see u being hurt.
even we have left u.
sry about that.
hope u really can understand our feelings.
sry.
btw.
i am sharing this blog with elisa.
hahas.
so dun get mix up.
hahs.
yeah.
STELLA XD
but seeing them so happy.
i think to me is ok bahs.
although we argue because of comeone.
bt i think it wun affects bahs.
hope that u really have found ur happiness and can stay happy always.
we dun wan to see u being hurt.
even we have left u.
sry about that.
hope u really can understand our feelings.
sry.
btw.
i am sharing this blog with elisa.
hahas.
so dun get mix up.
hahs.
yeah.
STELLA XD
what we could have been, 12:00 PM.
